I know I stepped away for a while, too many thoughts in my head, but I'm back now with another story. I haven't forgotten my others and I will be
updating them soon.... but this has been rolling around in my head and I thought I should post.... thanks for reading....
One Look
Chapter 1
I catch myself staring at her and I'm in awe. When she's not paying attention I can't seem to stop myself. I stare at her and wonder when… why… what… how? The whens, whys, and whats aren't really important but the how… how in the hell did she end up with me? She's beautiful… I know the word beautiful isn't near enough to completely describe my Gia but whenever I look at her that is the first word that comes to mind.
She's put up with a lot… my arrogance… my famiily… me… and she's still here. She's still loving me. How in the hell that happened I don't know but every day every moment I have to stop and look at her to prove to myself that this life I am living is real. I can't help but laugh when Lucky talks about me being whipped. Hell yeah I'm whipped and if he experienced even half of the Gia I have he would be whipped too. Sometimes I catch him staring at Gia as well and I can't help but wonder the thoughts that go through his head.
It's sorta funny… the paparazzi used to pray for a shot showing of some kind of affection between the two of us but we used to be so careful. We were good at playing the role of the detached aristocrat and his American model girlfriend but now I can't seem to keep my hands off of her. I don't care when, where, or who we are around, all it takes is one look from her and I'm done. I am all over her, kissing her, touching her, bringing her closer still to me. By now I'm sure all are now tired of seeing my affection for Gia but it doesn't matter. As long as Gia's not tired of it her hand in mine and my lips upon her skin will remain.
She sighs and I'm back to staring at her. I think I'm staring now because I'm unsure of how she's going to react. Nervous because I've been carrying a damn box around in my pocket for days and I'm still not sure of what I'm going to say. I've heard the talk of how we are too young and have not experienced life enough but I know what I feel for Gia and I also know this feeling is forever.
It would be easy from me to tell her I love her because I've loved her from the moment I met her. And when she finally returned love to me the feeling was something I can't truly describe. I've told her I loved her countless time and she always smiles and tell me the same in return. But now when I tell her how much I love her and I ask her to promise me forever my words have to be right.
Lately my nervousness seems to come in waves, some moments and days better than others, but it seems the one I am riding now just my do me in. I'm constantly searching my pocket afraid that I've somehow lost the ring but I know the answer even before the search. I want her forever and until I have that promise I'm afraid I might fall off the deep end. Maybe if I take a deep breath I can calm myself to finally ask her what I've wanted to ask since what seems like forever. Her voice pulling me from my thoughts I stare back at her once again lost in her wonder.
"You're staring again…" a smile covering her face Robyn continued to read the magazine on her lap.
"Huh?"
Slowly looking up from her magazine a slow smile covered my love's face as she spoke to me, "I said you're staring at me again."
"Yeah…" a smile matching her's I responded knowing the reaction my words would bring, "I really couldn't help myself."
"Meaning?"
Plastering a sorrowful look on my face I sighed as I answered her question, "I umm… I don't know how to tell you this but…"
Smiling as she freaked out over an imaginary smudge on her face my heart again swelled overcome with emotion knowing what was about to happen.
Reaching forward to gently caress her cheek I could not help but laugh as I finally told her the truth. "I lied…"
Distractedly wiping still at her face Robyn did not hear confession. Throwing a quick what in response I again smiled as I told her my ruse.
Slowly shaking my head as I spoke, "There's nothing on your face…"
Seeing the laughter on my face my Gia playfully hits at me failing at hiding her laughter, "You are such a %+%@!%%…"
"Yeah, but I'm your %+%@!%%…"
Softly, "Yeah, you're mine…" Love dancing in her eyes my Gia leans forward to offer me her lips in a kiss. The feel of her lips on mine I deeply sigh as I pulled her closer still to me. She's like my drug, my ultimate high, and I am forever in need of her. Her response to me is instant and I engulf her deeply in my arms high from the feeling. The moment I long dreaded and craved is finally here and my heart speaks all that I feel.
